So C-C-C-C-C-Contraversial

I'm odd. Strange, plain and simple. I don't give into indulgences. I don't want to get shwasted and fuck everything that moves. I'd rather not speak/give my two cents. Honestly, I usually don't care enough to. I hate everyone around me. I am in a constant war with myself. Always having doubts if I do something out of my norm. I don't watch TV or movies because I don't understand how they work. I use word that no one know the meaning of. No one knows what the hell I'm ever trying to say. I'd rather stay inside than be out because I am too afraid of strangers. I don't care what people think of me, but I try my hardest to look as ordinary as possible. I refuse to believe in any higher beings. What makes them so great? My trust issues have turned into trust tragadies and have rendered any healthy relationships I've once had nonexistent. I like concrete better than grass. I hate asking people for things. I dread accepting gifts. I cannot stand materialism. I know I'm not average. Average is contraversial.